Awww Yeah!

I lost seven pounds this week! My dog wanted to share in my joy so she decided to join me for my weekly pic and I appreciate her support. She has still managed to beg scraps from my husband and maintained her heftyness but she is at least supporting my efforts.

Class was pretty awesome today but what else do you expect? Take a bunch of chunkers and put them on a thousand calories a day and you will see some pretty impressive weight loss. I think one man lost 14 pounds this week! It was biggest loser style but without the tears and annoying product placement of Jennie O turkey or spearmint gum. We all had a great week and are working program pretty well. There were a few comments from a couple of classmates like they were going to go out and celebrate but I think they were joking. I hope they were at least. I'm trying to change my behavior in 20 weeks not just lose some flab and then go back to my old ways. Ranch dressing never solved anyones problems ladies! Well, maybe the Hidden Valley people are rich and can swim in their rivers of ranch-y goodness but for the rest of us.....that stuff will kill ya!

The first week

The first week on my new program has gone well. Our session last week included our weigh in, getting our materials and having a class that went over the program. They showed us how to use the shakes, what your nutrition should be with the added fruits and vegetables and our dietician went over the other stuff you can add to the shakes and meal replacements. We were all new to this and there were some good questions. My class includes about 15 other people and I think that I am the youngest in it. There is another woman around my age that I know from other social events and a good friend of mine is there as my "partner." Its nice to know at least one other person and we have been keeping in touch and encouraging each other via IM. Most of my class includes some older women and some men. Mostly us girls though. There is one guy in there and he is probably in his 70's. We had to go around and introduce ourselves and share something about our lives. I noticed that most of the women kind of apologized for themselves and said things like, "Hi, my name is fatty and I'm here because I like to bake." Well no shit ladies. "My name is fatty boombatty and I like to eat too much and thats why I am here". The guy in his 70's was a pain in the ass in the initial sign up session and frankly I was surprised to see him show up for class. He brought his wife with him and I thought at first that they were doing the program together but alas, I was wrong. He started his welcoming by saying that he was sickly, had high blood pressure, diabetes, etc and that his wife was here to learn how to make him do the program?! So here is my beef-If you have to have someone come and learn how to MAKE YOU do the program then where the hell is your own accountability for yourself? If you want to lose weight it has to be your own decision. I am hoping he/they are not a detriment to the class but if he keeps yammering on and making his wife do everything for him I am going to have to call his ass out on it.

After class I decided to start right that afternoon. I had made up my mind and didn't want to do one more night of eating junk. So that's what I have been doing. It was difficult at first which every new diet is but it didn't really help being home with the kids and around food all day. It has been a little easier to be here at work and busy. The National Baby Food Festival was in town last week as well and usually that would warrant a trip to the ol' elephant ear stand but not this year. I took the kids down for an afternoon with my parents but we didn't treat ourselves to any Carney creations. Not only did I save 1800 calories but I didn't get any STD's from a dirty Carney stand! Yeah me! Cayman liked watching the other kids ride rides but wasn't very interested in anything but her grandma and swinging on the swing set. It was nice. On Saturday the big parade was happening so we headed down and met up with my parents once again for a kick ass parade. I don't know about parades in other towns but they might as well call this the candy parade because holy shit, my kid was bombarded with tootsie rolls and so much garbage! My mother sat with her and literally every float/car was a politician with crappy candy and a "vote for me!" The kids were like rabid sugar fiends on the side of the road just waiting for their next fix. And to top it all off, a lot of the time they throw this hard candy towards you. Like, throw it hard. So you can be pelted with your next yummy treat. Cayman doesn't really get into candy so she was fascinated with all of this Halloween like atmosphere. But wouldn't you know, when Ronald McDonald came by on his convertible McDiabetes car she screamed out, "Wonald Ma-Donald!!!!" How the hell does she know who the he is?! I may be Fatty Boombatty but we seriously have not been to a McDonald's in a long time. She doesn't even like the food when we go. Play land she likes. McNuggets she does not. And in defense of the television she likes Nick Jr so we don't see a lot of commercials. I don't know where she knew him from but holy shit was that scary. They probably have him in school or something? Learn your ABC's with Ronald!

Overall, I had a great week and am feeling pretty good. I got my workouts in, my husband has been very supportive and I am figuring things out. I weigh in tomorrow and will post my first week picture. I'm hoping for a good number!

Day One-For realz

Today I go to my first meeting. I'll weigh in at noon and finally be accountable for the shit I have been eating. I have been referring to today as my start of Rehab. Its like I am Lindsay Lohan but without the jail, prescription meds and fame. But I am really excited! In the last two days some really incredible things have happened at work for our company and to top of the fabulosity of everything, my two year old daughter POOPED IN A TOILET after asking to go "poopin." I said to my brother in an email today that I may just be a skinnier, richer, and less crap on my hands kind of girl soon. I'm almost a vision. Today I woke up thinking that today was the first day of a new life and I can't help but think that a new attitude on things has resulted in some of these good things happening.

So, as to really start and be accountable here is a picture of me, today. Because this IS me today and this is my start and part of the journey for me is to be okay with myself at every size and to look forward to a new future where I am healthier and happier. I will be posting a pic of myself weekly for the next 20 weeks. Thanks for the encouragement!

Day One-Kinda

I'm starting a little blog thing here to attempt to inspire myself and others on my upcoming weight loss journey. I have signed up to complete a "diet" that is a 20 week program wherein I will be consuming meal replacement shakes and fresh fruits and vegetables for a total of 1000 calories a day. I weigh in weekly with my class of around 15-20 other people who are doing the same thing and we are monitored by a doctor and dietitian throughout the time period. I know many people who have been extremely successful on this program and have kept the weight off. This blog will just be my thoughts, trials and tribulations throughout it all.

I just got back from my first meeting with the doctor who is in charge of the program. I had my blood work done last week and based on my blood I am as healthy as a horse but as fat as one as well. I'm not quite ready to put my number down to the Internet world as to how much I currently weigh. I guess its like telling your new boyfriend your sexual conquest number-frightening and uncomfortable all wrapped into one soul crushing judgemental stare down so I'm not going to do it yet. I think sometimes telling your hook up number may be easier! But the good news is that I ONLY HAVE 50 POUNDS TO LOSE! The bad news is that I ONLY HAVE 50 POUNDS TO LOSE! I know I can accomplish this goal and am ready to begin. He stated that most people lose 17% of their body weight during the 20 week session. I will have to increase my workouts to an hour a day to accomplish over 17% of weight loss. That's okay. I think I can do it.

Oh yeah, I should probably mention that I have two small children and a sorta job. I work 3 days a week at the family business and occasionally from home but am home with the kids the days that they are not at daycare. I have a daughter who just turned two and a son who is 5 months old. It's slightly exhausting. But enjoyable. My husband is a wonderful guy and we have been married for 5 years this month. I will call him "M." My husband also is building his own business and so he is on the road a lot trying to make a name for his-self which leaves the parenting mostly to me when he is gone. I think its hard. And I have eaten myself silly lately to I guess get my feelings out or something?! This has resulted in being fat and miserable so now its time to do something about it. So here I am! Pictures and other self absorbed things to follow!